Three mostly unrelated thoughts.

1) The photo of Tony Bloncourt seems quite well preserved, and for whatever reason his style seems pretty modern. It somehow creates a bit of cognitive dissonance or something; how could he have been killed by Nazis, he looks like the subject of a modern drivers license photo.

2) It is interesting that, despite being so awful, the Nazis let people write these last letters. I wonder how this tiny bit of humanity survived.

3) I wonder, is the line

> Today, I will have lived.

An expression, part of a well known poem, or something like that, in French? As the article notes

> This turn of phrase, so simple grammatically speaking, is deceptively philosophical because it captures the interval that separates the writer from the reader, the one who will have lived from the one who lives on.

It is a remarkable bit of grammatical sleight of hand to somehow pack so much this much reflection on mortality and life into, basically, a choice of tenses.

In Latin it's somewhat usual to use the past perfect of "to live" to indicate that someone has died.

In Dido's last speech in the Aeneid, before committing suicide, one of the things she says is "vixi" ("I have lived"). Cicero is also known to have used "vixerunt" ("they have lived") as a euphemism for reporting on how he had people executed.

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/vixerunt

So maybe this is a classicism in French, or maybe the author just thought of it spontaneously.

Latin also has a future perfect like this ("vixero", "I will have lived"), but I can't think of an example of people using it to talk about imminent deaths.

> he looks like the subject of a modern drivers license photo.

I was reminded of an interview on Fresh Air around 10 years ago or so where a director was talking about going through casting photos looking for people who “looked like“ they belonged in the WWI era. Terry Gross knew exactly what he was getting at (as did I), in that outside of clothes and hairstyle, some people seem to just seem like they belong in different historical contexts (conversely, there are plenty of old portraits of people who see, like they belong more in the 21st century than the 18th).

This is interesting...when my partner and i watch films portraying an older, historic period, we use the term "timeless" or "classic-looking" to refer to some actors who mostly due to their appearance (and maybe a little makeup) can look like they belong in so many different periods. And, then there are other actors, who clearly don't seem like they would fit in periods outside of our own modern day...and this has nothing to do with whether any of the actors look attractive or not...its just a thing that some people have about their appearance (or not).

> I will have lived

This is one of those constructions that works better in French than in English. It has future tense and perfect aspect (so, "future perfect"), which gets muddled in English since English generally muddles tense and aspect.

I'm confused by all this nuance about verb conjugations. The idea is to say "today I lived (but also am not alive anymore)" as I interpret it. Would it not suffice to say something along the lines of "by the end of today, I will have had lived". Of course, I know the response, this would not suffice, some sort of Anthony Bourdain-ish romanticism about a particular language and the romance of complicated French verb conjugations.

I think it works fine in English grammatically. We say "will have (verb)" all the time, after all. The thing that is tricky about that sentence is that one doesn't usually use "to live" on its own in English. Like, you don't say "I have lived", you add something else to the sentence to make it feel complete. I suppose it's different in French.

You might enjoy the photos of Sergei Mikhailovich Prokudin-Gorski [1]. His photos were taken in the 1800s using an early colour photography technique. Many of them look as if they were taken today.

Aside from being black and white, photos tend to look old because of hairstyles and clothing. The "time traveling hipster" [2] is a good example of someone in an old photo creating dissonance by not conforming to expectations

[1] https://www.google.com/search?tbm=isch&as_q=Sergei+Mikhailov...

[2] https://www.reddit.com/r/timetravelercaught/comments/e82116/...

> It is interesting that, despite being so awful, the Nazis let people write these last letters. I wonder how this tiny bit of humanity survived.

No person is completely evil, nor completely good. Even Nazis could be capable of kindness amidst the cruelty (Hitler was famously kind to his dogs, for example). Those bits of good don't wipe out the bad, but vice versa the bad doesn't mean the good wasn't a real part of them either. People are just complicated and hard to judge with complete accuracy.

> 1) The photo of Tony Bloncourt seems quite well preserved, and for whatever reason his style seems pretty modern. It somehow creates a bit of cognitive dissonance or something; how could he have been killed by Nazis, he looks like the subject of a modern drivers license photo.

I think it's sometimes easy to get tripped up by funny clothes or hairstyles, and forget the people in the past were just like us. But there are only so many ways one can do their hair, and an oddly contemporary hairstyle can pull us back to the reality we're not that different.

OK, so I did a little digging on the guy behind the letter, Huỳnh Khương An [1]. Turns out he was born in Ho Chi Minh City, back when it was called "Saïgon" and a French colony.

He arrived in France between his 12th and 15th birthday, and then became a philosophy professor, and a communist one at that.

This guy was very much an intellectual, which explains the pretty and unusual "Aujourd'hui, j'aurais vécu" (Today, I will have lived). I don't think I've ever seen it elsewhere, so he probably came up with it himself.

His wife was arrested too but survived the war and went on to continue her communist activism.

So yeah, definitely an interesting couple.

[1] https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hu%E1%BB%B3nh_Kh%C6%B0%C6%A1ng...

j'aurai (without a s): future tense, not conditional ;)

Yup, you're right. And now the comment's too old to edit. Welp.

Funnily enough "Aujourd'hui, j'aurais vécu" translates to "Today, I would have lived", which oddly enough kind of fits and is somewhat poetic too.

> It is interesting that, despite being so awful, the Nazis let people write these last letters. I wonder how this tiny bit of humanity survived.

I’m at a loss as to why the Nazis would put their foot down over a last smoke or a last letter.

I don’t wanna be too harsh but I think that learning how to live from deathbed letters, especially the deathbed letters from people who were going to be sentenced to death is utter nonsense.

The letters were going to be checked by the people that were killing you — the nazis in this example — so your letter was never going to be “fuck those utter pigs” or anything resentful of the people that were going to be your murderers because they would just be shredded or burnt or destroyed in some way. So this has a massive impact on the contents of the letters.

Then there’s the unreliability of the narrator on the deathbed, I recently read a beautiful article about this about why you should not take advice from people on their deathbed or from yourself on your deathbed, the inherent bias you have will make you unreliable and the things you value and take for granted on your deathbed will not necessarily have been things you have always had but instead may be things you have worked hard for in your life. [1]

Now that’s not to say their words are nothingburgers but when you have to wholly draw your own conclusions from inherently biased letters it starts to feel like we are all pretending to care more about these words because of the sacredness of death. No one wants to disrespect the dead, no one wants to say “wow, he must have been really losing it at the end” and that’s a given, not to be rude to dead people. That’s like punching down to the first degree. But like even things that would be considered light critiques or nice criticism don’t get to be said about take it or leave it bodies of work from dead people, because they are dead. On the one hand that’s a beautiful thing because let’s not start disrespecting dead people but on the other hand let’s keep it real.

[1] https://www.hjorthjort.xyz/2018/02/21/the-deathbed-fallacy.h...

I thought of that article too, but these letters are not really regret filled. For the most part, they knew what they were doing and ready for the consequences.

Rather, they're grieving and saying goodbye to loved ones. And the author wonders, how might we live more present to cherish our loves ones and feel the moments more deeply?